i have only been emo cause of one person and ONLY one. i hate him for being so cold hearted. you bloody pain in the ass! you freaking flirt. dont understand why i'm so affected by him. i dont even like him now. stupid stupid stupid. stupid me. i hate you i hate you i hate you. just when i was healing from you previous attack you just gave me another stab. yea hate IS a big word. i wont hate you for long. cause i want to keep my friends close. why make enemies. lol enemies over a trival matter.

kk so i just told nat to be happy not long ago. so i shall talk about the happier things :)

2 times you walked into my class. 1 times you walked pass my class and looked in. 12 times you called out to me from your class window. 4 days i havent been talking to you :(( 1 time you talked to me about your previous girlfriend.

i remember the first time i saw you. we were at level 3 locker. you were talking to a girl then jx came and say 'eh eh eh dont flirt with her! that my class one!' then me and fiona was quietly laughing away. she then told me your name. say you very flirt de. haha. then as we were walking to staircase i looked at you and you returned the gaze at me. somehow, somewhat, for some reason, we just held that look until a wall came between us. then i 'woke up' and said to myself 'why am i looking at him?'

soon after, i found out that you liked me. for the second time we looked at each other in the eyes was at canteen. you were with jonas and ben. they were like 'say la! just say! go go' but then you didnt want. haha so shyy! then i just continued walking. you guys went to concourse then jonas called me. i turned and he nudged you to say. but you just pulled jonas away like a little kid. hahaha.

the first time i talked to you, you ask me to watch the match. you were damn cute. at first i couldnt understand what you were saying cause you always talk damn fast. so i was like 'whaaaaaaat? whoooooooo? whaaaaat? whennnnnnn? ohhhhhh... whaaaat?' hahaha i felt like an idiot. then when the match was over you thanked me 6 times for watching it. damn cute la you.

after that you kept calling, my mum and dad got suspicious that there was something between us but i said you were my classmate and dunno how to do your homework. hahaha.

so many things i remember about you. sometimes i just wonder if you have forgotten about me, if you still like me, if maybe one day we'll be like last time. so many what ifs. everytime i see that URGH i think of you. :(( i wonder if you think of me.

oh i forgot to talk about the funniest thing. i still remember one of the times you called out to me from your class. you said "OI" then i turned around. you were at level 4 i was at level 3. then your teacher knock your head, then you were pointing at your book. i think you said something like asking about the book. lol. hahaha you brighten up my day no matter what and when. its just whether youre there

so will you be there? not like you read my blog anyway :(( if you read this, you'd definitely know its you.